MY LIFE IN ZION, AS ONE WITH CHRIST IN HEART AND MIND
MY LIFE IN ZION, AS ONE WITH CHRIST IN HEART AND MIND
May 1, 2009
9:05 a.m. Wow! I’ve had such a great morning–so conscious of the Savior’s abiding presence in my “midst.” So grateful for the rock-solid hope and peace that gives me. So grateful for how far and wide I can see from this “center stake of Zion”–that is always waiting for me to attend to “it” (to Him, His living, indwelling Presence in my heart.) With complete abandon, I sought Him and found Him and remembered His covenant and entered into His rest.
In the last few minutes, I have been tempted to doubt and fear “my” audacity, “my” boldness in the testimony of (from) Him. I shared it with Phil and I was not tempted to be ashamed, but just now–sharing with a dear friend–I was tempted to be ashamed after I hung up. I was assailed with thoughts of, “Too much–you are too much! You said too much! You were overbearing. You were defensive–defending yourself. Shame on you.”
And there I recognize the “Accuser,” the “Liar,” the “Blamer” and “Shaming one,”—Satan. I recognize his influence. His spirit. His tone.
And in heed of Elder Hales recent counsel (April 2009 conference address), I dismiss the enemy. In the Name of Jesus Christ, I dismiss him and return to the testimony of (from) Christ and His invitation and counsel to me to not be ashamed or afraid of bearing testimony of my life in Him–that my life is sealed up unto Him and that I have no hope, no peace, no sanity–except as I center my heart and mind in oneness with His. This is what it means to “have the mind of Christ” (1 Corinthians 2:16; Philippians 2:5-6) and the price extracted for it is the surrender of your separate ego, your pride, your will, your being. I was there, once, and then backed away, being persuaded by the Liar that to think in these terms was too presumptuous, too audacious, that I was taking this “coming to Christ” too far, and making too much of it and what it meant to me—and to any who would believe on my word.
What I am realizing in this latest season of reawakening to this reality in my life, is that the Atonement, once received, cannot be undone. It is comparable to having become like a conjoined twin with Him–conjoined at the heart and in the mind. It is no longer I that live, but Christ that lives in me, as Paul put it (Galatians 2:20).
Galatians 2:20 – I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
I see that I am having the lived experience of learning the Spirit of Revelation–learning, specifically, how “consumed in Christ” I must be humble enough be, and humble enough to admit to myself and even to others that I must be. Otherwise, my life is “staunched,” stopped up, dried up in the very moment there of. I can feel the change in my mind and heart from perfect love (and peace and hope) to fear and mistrust.
I see that there is no other way or means by which to grow into the Spirit of Revelation except by owning and being still in this truth—I am in Zion, as Zion, of one heart and mind with the King of Zion—and thus, in Him, I am Zion. Just as we often tease, nowadays, and say, “Be the crown,” or “Be the ball,” meaning become as one with, become consumed in the goal, the prize. So it is to be consumed in Christ and His offer of at-one-ment.
